But I digress (as I always do) ((lmao I should be doing my Chem MCQ but gdi)) and yea alls been well and no time to think "yet stop I did" I hope I quoted Larkin correctly. Wow writing all this ^ nothing makes me feel... Like I'm finally considering, letting thoughts swim in my head instead of taking a day as it comes. That's gr8 too I've been happy everyday for the longest I can remember and I'm thankful so thankful. But I guess there should be a balance and we should reflect on some too. Balance. It's been a recurring theme; it's the magic word.

I'm a coward. Rarely ever being able to speak out about my deepest inner thoughts - even on my own blog I write in riddles - and I attribute this to the fear of committing. Recently I've discovered (ok it's been brought to my attention) about how I rarely (ok more like never ever) answer the question. You could ask me a simple question about what I ate for lunch and instead of telling you 烧鸡尾饭 I'd spring into how I had such a dilemma choosing between going to the kopitiam and eating fast food. Almost as though I were afraid that my answer wouldn't be satisfactory. And in all honestly, I think this might be the case. 

I tend to avoid conflict. Any sort of confrontation. I just want things peaceful, calm, neutral, happy. Unless of course I'm the one who feels that something is off then I don't (ok maybe just a bit) hesitate to talk to you about it esp if you're close to me. Ok back to the point... Yes so I don't make active choices; I stay passive and generally just go with the flow until I find that I have seem to suggested making a huge series of choices that I did not particularly feel for. And even then, I go with the flow. It's undoubtedly one of my biggest flaws. In a bid to please everyone, I put on whatever garb necessary to feint agreement consent whatever, when most times I have little or no preference. 

And so ladies and gentlemen, that is how you look back in hindsight and realise how you never fought for anything gr8 or turned out anything not so gr8. 

I haven't even gotten to what I'm really afriad of saying but ok bye I need to do an MCQ 

And omg I'm emulating Tom Crick asking whywhywhy and dredging up the truth!!!!! Wowzers

HELLo readers hehe if there are any left!!!!!!