erm. hello.



Honestly it's kinda attractive (ok maybe not attractive... cool?) When you have your life in check. Like you're so ready so independent you know exactly what you want.
Maybe that's something i should start thinking about? Setting short and long term goals and not just be contented with what i have now... I'm too easily contented la for sure it's good cos I'm happy but it's bad cos i rarely seek much improvement.
That's what i need yknow? To improve and keep on improving. I don't think I've really grown much as a person since quite long ago? Maybe due to reasons I've felt some stresses that were too much to handle that i just gave up on trying hard for anything else. But that's an excuse (it always is). I kinda miss when i was driven to do my best for everything though that felt so good.
Ah i forgot what i wanted to say grrrr. Anyway life is good now and things have happened that perhaps made me realise that it's not ok to be stagnating. I need to keep growing and growing and growing.
Everything sounds nice on paper... and even nicer in ~ haha that's nigel's group's script. But hopefully it's somewhat true i want to get in the habit (get in the groooooooove) of doing the right things... like diligently? Back when i was in primary 1. Maybe then can i only begin to consider even bigger things.
Aish I'm really good at this just talking but recently (these few years) not delivering. I better do sth or it'll be too late.
