hihihihi MYEs are ovaaaaa can you believe that hahaha I went to sch for 3 days to take 5 exams it feels rather surreal man. compared to the fortnights in cedar... am blogging on my laptop which feels weird I haven't blogged here for so long!!!!!! how are you readers????

anw if you were wondering, here's an overview of how badly I will do:
GP: the AQ was damn shit I think that's 10 marks gone, at least... not sure how i'll do hopefully a C at least? (I mean please give me a C)
Econs: idk how leh I learnt a term's worth of concepts in 2 days hahahaha maybe by some miracle I might passs!!!!!
Math: wish I'd realised how it wasn't as hard as I thought from the beginning so I wouldn't have wasted time losing hope.........it's all too late
Chem: ha ha ha MCQ last 5 mins I anyhow shade 13/25 questions and paper 2 I never do 30 marks the most traumatising thing I've experienced since I saw a cat get hit by a car
Lit: screwed up waterland i'm gonna be so ashamed to face ms Cheryl but for lit you'll never know which way it goes until it comes back so........ pls let me pass
actually it's more a record for myself than anyone else... (erduh) especially the few days before MYE dat acculmulation of panic and fear and helplessness wow I don't ever want to forget that and you can't go bother others cos they're busy too

so i'm gonna get my life in check starting! now!!
things to do today:::
- clean up PW I promised to do a good job so I will :)
- PTI goals for the year haahaaaa we are horrible it was due in april or sth
- fill in orange/colour runs stuff
- my math tutorials maybe
- something fun!!!!! I got no plans sobs

I think the build up of frustration is mostly attributed to the studying of exams (I sincerely hope) and that things will look up and fall into place :> I will learn to love and be comfortable with myself ^^ and not saying i'm very selfless of anything... but I need to be more selfish or i'll just end up giving myself all away. anw recently I'm discovering my inner extrovert or sth cos I like being with people like i'll really go crazy if i'm alone for too long... but then again I feel really drained if I'm with people for too long oh well. wait I saw this cute thing on tumblr hehe. half half as everyone is i guess :B i also need to find some confidence from god knows where............. it really stresses me out when i feel like i can't say the things i want to say haha i think having to rethink your words is extremely exhausting but i have been eating my words so often for fear of

come on i'm a strong independent woman who don't need nobaday things will fall into place i will find my balance :) i am so thankful for the people i have i should be content!
"whatever you are, be a good one"