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✏ March forth (sorry I know it's not 4th anymore)

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It's the march holidays!!!!!!!!! But busier than ever sobs but happy that is possibly the only thing dampening my spirits!!!

When you find yourself contented suddenly there is nothing that may casually ruin your happiness anymore I just feel like everything will be fine even if it's not fine I can deal with it, yknow? Quietly I've always felt like I deserve to feel like this again - everyone does! Are you happy today?

I think that life is now hard on another page altogether, like it can't be measured using the same scale anymore cos everything is different but the little blemishes are nothing or insignificant to this emotional equilibrium i'm feeling now, if you may. Maybe next term or next year I'll be overwhelmed by cts or promos or something and cca will exhaust me day in day out and maybe I will read this post again and remember that everything is or will be ok some time or another!

This is also proves to myself that I've always had the niggling sense of control over myself and I did in fact understand myself, regardless of how little. I've always known that academic results mean nothing compared to human relationships and I hope that won't change, not now, not ever. But it's hard to say, though I would like to be positive ^-^

I am happy that trini's bday went well and my class is so cute and I do have the courage to connect with the people I want to ask about. I have also been receiving love on my askfm from some people I know hehe! I don't think I'll ever have anonymous compliments about being pretty or cute or something but no matter cos the love I got is so much more precious! I have also learnt to be unashamed of everything I stand for and believe in (still working on it actually but there's progress) cos I usually don't make it known. You know how sometimes you don't admit you love your friends cos you'll seem more needy or something but why! Would! You! Waste! An! Opportunity! To! Make! Them! Feel! Blessed! I've finally realised there's no shame in loving, only shame in hiding that love.

Everything good you have, share! Cos the good will multiply with love and the bad will spread whether you share it or not...

Of course life isn't all that perfect (it never is or it won't be forever) but I will deal with it with the full knowledge that I am enough! (And so are you!) Hard work has to be put in for results though pls 铭记于心! Stop being so lazy jades!!

Remember: love yourself first so you can love others more!!!

P/S: anyone who needs someone to talk to can come to me anytimeeeeeeee