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✏ Finally! A post hehe :>

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Soooo exhausted from walking about haji lane today. Can never fathom how people manage to shop till they drop.. maybe I'm just lousy haha
[Oops that was from saturday~]

Have a teeny weeny bit of feeling to blog today so here goes nothing..

I was just thinking.. Doesn't it make more sense to count your functional relationships not by how many people you'll be there for, rather, how many people you'll let be there for you? You could be a heroine, noble and friendly and whatnot - you could lend a listening ear, shoulder to cry on, heart full of empathy to anyone and everyone. But the question is how many would you trust enough to be uninhibited in your vulnerability? Not many, I would say. Numbers just gracing zero. Perhaps you'd find it difficult too. Though you might like to know I'm with you on this heh. Trust is........... way too intricate for my savage instincts.

And then, somedays I just think about the mistakes I've made, where I've gone wrong, faults in our paths. Today is one of those days I scarcely find any other liable option to what I'd decided/chose/acted upon (whatever that might be). Maybe it's a cheap attempt at a reason (which clearly is no better than an excuse) to justify myself (only thing I'm good at - I'm ashamed of) but whatever it is, somehow I've managed to tell myself I'd no other choice. What I'm tryinf tk say is, if I were given a chance to relive that moment with the same rush of feeling, I'd very possibly act the exact same way. It's not not learning from your mistakes or all those stupid generic things. Rather, it's that state of mind in that moment. Everything happens for a reason.. my only regret is not being rational enough to think things through systematically.

HCL paper tmr.. wonder if I failed? :/ I sure a hell deserve whatever im going to get tmr and thursday and monday because I haven't put in a quarter of what I should've done yet.... and although I'm really pissed off at what Mrs L said about our class, I guess we really are far from being anywhere near "there" (what she always says) so jiayou guys~ legendary is glory and burden we've brought upon ourselves so let's work hard to see that it holds water.

Rock climbing tmr hopefully all goes well and we have fun!! :-)

Happy birthday to a special bunny! Luvvvv :>