Sometimes I really question my principles and the lack of them.

Who are you to tell someone else to study hard (!!!!!!) when you're obviously no where near close to ready for anything, anytime soon. Who are you to tell someone off for being mean when you're such a judgemental prick yourself? Who are you to think of someone else as less when you are no more.

As much as I try to act like I don't care I guess I just do. I try too hard to be different and special because it makes me feel better about myself (y'know if i'm not perfect at least i'm different ya). But it's pathetic, really. I really digust myself. I can't stand how i'm not perfect enough to get away with the things i used to not even have a problem with. I especially cannot stand how i can't even stand for what i stand for sometimes. Do you know how pathetic that is????? Do you know how i long to kick myself somedays for being the insensitive asshole, all too full of herself when she doesn't have nothing??? I am nothing but an arrogant bitch who tries too hard to force her beliefs on others just to prove that she can.

This is the sad truth i am very very very ashamed to admit. I am nothing more than an empty shell made of glass and ether, strong but brittle.

And I am in full admiration of you who is proud of who you can be.