Feels like there's everything to do but there nothing to do yknow?

Finally starting on the rest of my work after thoroughly wasting the past 5 days spazzing/watching 幕后花絮 for in time with you.......... What am I doing really.

Oh enjoying myself yeah enjoying myself. But it's a horrible excuse to have wasted my entire holiday and the worst habit I have to 戒掉. I should regret this more than I am. I can't believe we're going to be sec 4 in a week's time I AM NOT READY. I'm not even running away from the fact because it hasn't even dawned on me yet. Diagnostic's on the first day, I've heard. Freaking out freaking out freaking out mentally but not physically doing anything (as usual). So tired of myself giving myself chances that I'm not tired anymore I'd like to 顺其自然 but then again I'm pretty sure nothing will happen. How, how you tell meeeeee?? It's okay I guess you have your own things to worry about.

Maybe I'll get into the mood once we step down? Thinking about it now, I'll be relieved I'll finally renounce the pressure of being in a team sport only to devolve into another kind of stress. You cannot imagine I personally think it's one of the most mentally strenuous things ever. Even more so, I'll miss it so so so much......... Never being able to play with the kids on court again, I don't want to imagine haha. (don't even know if I have the chance, that is) Just 2 more holiday trainings T-T Sigh I want to grow up but I don't ever want to age :-(

Btw I went shopping yesterday as much as I dislike it~~~~ and I finally got some new clothes (YAY) can't wait to go out with some people so I can at least show them off (hehe).

Do you know you lose your strength the moment you allow yourself weakness? I've realised this too late. I detest weakness. Sadly it feels like something I've become accustomed to, or maybe I was never strong. It's difficult to revert back to anything, really.

Have you ever met a person so nice you don't fully believe their complete lack of ill regard to anyone? I think it's human nature to disbelieve such surreal things or it might just be meanness. I think it's easier to think I was never nice :)

I think in time with you will remain my favourite drama for a long long long time. The plot is really good, really. And I love every single song!!! All the 插曲s and 主题曲s........ Also it reminds me of the first time I watched I was spazzing with boob haha. I wonder if she still reads this? Probably not.

So many things I wanted to do during the holidays AFTER I finished up with my homework but that category becomes invalid since I can't even finish my hmwk yea.......... There's so much time but there's no time left hahahaha

Actually kinda wish the world ended yesterday but no such luck ya so time to move on with life.