Is it true, you lose your mystery once you reveal your history? I think we revel too much in our misery.

It's been a misty/smoggy month. (Yes I understand they mean polar opposites) but that's exactly what I mean. Agreed with myself not to over think nothing, but being me, somehow I manage to overthink over thinking. I apologize if I seem really out of it most of the time because I am there, I just choose to sit there and watch me being there. Inception ha. Ok not really just some delirious desperation.

Today felt the most productive in ages. Most productive referring to actually doing something (and not lazing about watching anime not to mention rotting) cos I sure as hell didn't do any work sigh. Took 5 hours to draw out the logistics tables and rx edited them all away~ sigh her version is so much better I really wonder why I must be so 多此一举 sometimes.

I don't like when people know what I'm thinking or know what I'm talking about I don't like to think about what they might think about because I know what I'd think about if I knew what they thought about. I don't even dare write what I think anymore because I feel like I've revealed too much, even if it's not enough. I'm just scared la.

I wish eating could solve all your problems.