I have never done this before..

But it was rather worth it although didn't get to go out (I mean for the love of god don't tell me the special canteen menu was worth the wasted hours doing an NE project?) went out with my mum though hehe. But I'm pretty damn sure I will somehow manage to ooze guilt out of "I was sick" tomorrow because that's how pathetic a liar I am sigh. Anyway I think I'm coming down with a bout of food poisoning (I have no idea from what..) but it might just be 心理作用..

Plus I am completely whatever-the opposite-is-of-stoked for training tomorrow........... Sigh we haven't trained for so long and I feel the physical fitness of a 40 year old single living-alone office worker. How how how this is going to be bad >:

On the even darker side, I just can't seem to get rid of this nagging feeling that something even worse is bugging me. It's just.. This mildly nauseous sick at the bottom of my gut, unsettled. Keeps trying to erupt with every insecurity eew haha I hate the word insecurity. Sounds disgusting and weak (new favourite word: disgusting)

"谎言扁了一遍又一遍; 骗得过就是真的骗不过就是假的." Haha something from 千方百计~ it's true isn't it, we're living in a web of lies.

Bye haven't done Chinese shitzles :-(