Actually stalking myself has some pretty good effects heh...... I am actually remotely funny sometimes :-) and I am most probably not anyone difficult just a teenager with a blog and dreams bigger than the world? (ok maybe not) but it sure as hell feels good to write. It's enjoyment, really. Anw if you do read my blog please take everything I say with a pinch of salt somedays I choose to be incoherent more than anything..

Not very productive today.. Lo and behold, 13 days to EYEs. English sigh English.. So so so many topics to go through, yknow? But today I don't feel like blaming our education system.. Going to blame myself for once. Honestly I don't like pushing the buck yknow I think it's really.. Unbecoming. But it's probably a problem to think everything is your fault too? (one of the reasons for my high maintenance, actually) maybe I am just yearning for something better like everyone else.

Feels like a good talk to someone now.. About anything everything nothing? Truthfully I am as terrified of commitment as.. Yelping in fear at a scalding kettle (does this make sense hahaha) it's a scary thought, isn't it.

And I had one of those random "feel like embracing world" moments again today.. Alongside "want to strangle everything" it's a phase I guess as much as I hate classifying anything hmm.

Somedays like today my words get too definite too judgmental I try to stop myself but too late it's becoming a habit.. It's possible but. I can guarantee this is going to trail off into nothing.. Right about.. Now.

With a flick of her sleeves, she was gone.