I think I expect too much.

Some things I don't do for other people but I expect them to do for me. I expect others to be there for me when I might not even be able to get over myself and be there for them. O take them for granted. I secretly feel like I'm giving more and hurting when in actual fact, have barely considered their feelings. To sum it up basically I'm just a horrible selfish person. I wouldn't even want to know me if i weren't me. Good luck if you're my friend :)

But how do you prevent yourself from expecting anything? Since disappointment is a feeling, you can't just deactivate it or unfeel it. You'd have to expect something, realise you're expecting and then stop yourself, wouldn't you? And that seems like a far fetch considering how you'd have had to feel some sort of hurt before you realise you shouldn't be feeling that way to avoid anymore pain. Oh I think I just explained it to myself.. Though it just feels like another sad suppression of feelings oh well.

Don't plan. Do not ever plan your study timetable or what have you because chances are you'll spend the energy calculating your hours and end up with less than half the productivity. Writing out what you have to do is a good start but planning out the order in which you choose to do them is a bit too much, don't ya think? People tell you to plan your time to help you kick start your work. Well it never ever works for me at least D;

So here's my (really shallow) piece of advice. Jump straight into your task. Live in the moment. Listen to your heart and go with the flow. Many a times you'll find it's quite a good way to finish up your stuff :3

Anw, aMaths was a piece of shit as usual. Tbh, ytd I was actually looking through the questions and thinking it's quite simple hahaha oh boy am I wrong. (An example of how I am secretly full of myself) only did 18 marks so if I get everything right then maybe a pass? If not.. Sigh. Whatever happened to working hard I just can't get to work chancinskcnskcneks. (effectively, this renders my above paragraph useless I suggest you stop wasting your time reading my crap go and study now shoo!!)

Coasts coasts coasts I am going to study but if I don't do well I am going to say I didn't study hard enough because that's the way I roll.

Bye heh.