This encounter is nothing I'd expected and it's rather pleasant :) I'm glad.

I think I'm finally close to self-repair I feel almost as good as new. Must've been forgiving myself through talking to other people recently. Thank goodness for new beginnings :')

A friendship is for life. It never ends or it never was. I will always and forever wish for you to be happy, genuinely happy. When you're bothered I will still be here to listen to you, try my best to give you something more than rubbish advice if you still trust/need me to. I will always always be here for you. I will always care.

But I am letting go too. I am letting go of the memories and the hope and whatever there is left. I've come to terms that this hope, however existent, will not be able to sustain a renewed friendship. I am letting go of the place you've occupied in my heart; it can be empty for now I don't mind. Hey, your contract is up, the space is now open for lease :)

I've been selfish so unbelievably selfish. I've done stupid things, thought stupid things, and didn't say enough stupid things. I regret, can't tell if it's more of the things I didn't do or the things I did do. But regret is just.. Regret. There's no other form of energy you can change it to. Not negative, and definitely not positive. So yup, I will always regret. But I've learnt to :) I've learnt how to care and how to love. I've experienced the definition of a true friend(s). I've learnt to express myself, be happy when I am and not to suppress the negativity when i'm not. Because it drowns you, it hurts you more than you know. Now that I've been given such an invaluable lesson I will give back. I've learnt to live.

When you're happy there is no sunshine. You are the sunshine. When you're happy is from inside you, some mysterious ball of energy forcing laughter out your pores. When you're happy the world is a beautiful place to be, sky's pretty (even if it's grey), grass' green and people are actually tolerable, better than tolerable even, maybe. When you're happy you infect the world with your smile and you give. You give back the happiness bestowed to you. (when you're sad you take self-pity, of course) When you're happy, hope is abundant.

I will never give up on the things worth fighting for :)