Let's sit under the stars and talk forever about things that don't matter.

i can't control my anger anymore. i get angry too freaking easily. sure, i can suppress it. but it's still there. it'll always be there. like a devilish fire growing steadily feeding on my intolerance. it's weakness. it's a shortcoming. it's a bad habit i've developed over time. recently there's been this increasing urge to lol everyone. the only freaking reason i haven't done it is because it's against my principles. when i do, it'd be the day i lose hold. aish yknow i get pissed at the slightest thing?? now you know i basically feel like stabbing everyone all the time. that's pathetic. why i so like that ugh.

on a side note, do you believe in "fake it till you make it" ?

quite busy recently. then now later. past week's been eventful! but didn't do any hmwk whoops die. gonna try to finish maths tonightttt.. and the cards i wanted to make.. gah can i abandon them >: shitness haiiiiii. mainly got chingay, training, psl stuff and other side events uhhhh~ tmr got AGM from 8-5 omg *cries* oh today!!!! embarrassing max man. during regist debrief they were going thru the feeback and stuff andd i fell asleep cos abit the tired uhh. then mdm S was talking then i think she said sth "am i so boring until someone fell asleep?" then everyone turned back then beiyi poked me then i woke up then yeah i wanted to crawl into a hole and die basically. HORRIBLE EMBARRASSING HUMILIATING CRAP. k let's end that there.

ahhh class havent' come out yet~ feel ok actually. hasn't really struck me we'll all be going different places with different people. nothing has struck me yet. can't even believe we'll be sec 3 next year. can i just hide in a corner while you move on with your lives? please?? and yes, i do wish on every 11:11 if i catch it.. i'm prepared to have no life next year. i don't want a life actually. too much to think about. too much growing up to do. also my english has been deteriorating like crap; if there is one thing i would keep above all it'd probably be my language&writingstyle..

ever wonder what makes each of us feel better? i think mine's touch. when i feel insecure, no, uneasy is more apt; i'd want to touch someone i'm close to. I MEAN THAT COMPLETELY CLEANLY BTW. it's just comforting, don't you think? i wonder what other people do. if you could reply to this, would you like to share? ok i sound weird like this is some kind of forum ignore that please.

will you guide me through this haze? silver white winters that melt into spring.. bye!