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hehe did i tell you i got into PSB?! amazing right they pajiao one how i become PSL hahaha. anw~ COALs in 2 days! excited :) kinda anw. auditions today! i think it went well :) i hope we get in man~ 2 days ago after trini said our script was crap we changed it and in 1 day and less than 10 full practices we've done a pretty good job i think. well done falcon! so proud of us :3 hehe. funny how it's so difficult to fill the space here than there. feels so different. ah and haven't finish packing nidovbeudbgveud i mean ahh barely start hehe. and i haven't even start my hmwk ohnozxc. but ah sian can :P AND LIT IS NOT OFFERED AS NINTH SUBJECT WHYYYYY. i really want lit yknow, when i heard that news i finall realised how much i actually want lit. but well ah i don't know still. screw you and your indecisiveness woman D: i'm exhausted but i don't sleep. i'm full but i continue to eat. life is irony at it's best.

haha i wonder if people have secret blogs too and secretly talk about me in their blogs. somethings i wonder but i would rather not know, such as this heh. maybe i'm afraid of knowing yea? and she who does not need to be named, hi! <: actually i really enjoy reading your blog yknow. i like all the annotations you dooooo. so.. fun unlike mine. and how you mention me in your blog sometimes :P i also always mention you what! rightright! heheh. and yes, i do i think. what that refers to? you may never know :P i did miss you.

sometimes i question myself so much i even doubt the very basis of my existence. simple things like do i really love food? or do i just keep eating out of habit, of just having an image to keep up to. i can't rmb the last time i was really really hungry. i think i constantly feed myself such that i never ever even manage to get hungry. i have brought myself to the epitome of weirdness and internal conflict. somehow i manage to doubt everything i do. i trust everyone but myself yknow?

i miss you, you, you and you. i miss us, but most of all i miss me. comebacksoon.

ok i am diving into some kind of sad emo pool again better stop nao. must be cos i went tumblr just now!!! D: kthxbai.