sorry.

sorry if i don't try hard enough. sorry if it's really fake. sorry i feel like such a hypocrite. sorry i don't treasure you enough. sorry i can't tell if it's real. sorry.

but the feeling is not there. i know nothing exceptional will happen even if i try harder. hence i don't feel the compelling need to get to know you more. i know you've been dropping hints (accidentally or purposely?) for me to probe and ask more. but i just brush them away and ignore. i know even if i try harder, our relationship will be one of hardwork and nuture and not out of just being.

should i try harder? i think i should.