Ah so many people's birthday around this time. At least 4 i tell you. i'm super broke now man.

Sometimes i don't even know why i bother buying presents for people. It's not like they buy presents for me too. i mean, YES I KNOW SOME OF THEM BUY LUH. but still.. Last year i shared for everyone in my clique i think they didn't even get me anything. Yes they wished me and all, yes some of them did buy stuff for me, yes it's the thought that counts, but why do i feel so bitter? hai i know it's the thought that counts and if i feel like this i shdn't buy at all. But still i have to, don't i? i hate how screwed this feels. i swear i'm just gonna give cards next year, like it or not. yknow some people actually just openly ask for stuff. yes, it's because they're that close to me, yes it's better than for me to buy smth random and them not liking it. even so, it's so ensijovndvuoebvinedboive idek. it's like i'm trying okay, i'm alr trying so hard to get your damned present..

Shitz idek why i'm so emotional these days. Stupid hormones. Go die lah. i tear easily if i'm angry or annoyed rather than sad or frustrated for some reason. Well. that's life. DEAL WITH IT JADE. DEAL WITH IT. i don't think people read my blog anymore. i hope they don't.

Love!

i wanna talk to you.